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11 December 2022 @ 05:24 pm

Sorry guys, you gotta be my friend and be logged in to read any further entries.
Everything prior has been already Public so too little too late.
But from now on.. you wanna read the BS about my life you gotta be friended.

Feel free to leave a comment if you're interested.
And yes.. that IS 10 ninjas.

 KBN.. out.
 
 
Im Feeling Sooooooooo: amused
 
 
Katie of the Massively Large Testicles
21 August 2009 @ 01:36 pm

Nick and Norahs Invite Playlist is the Tower Records for the "Now" indie generation.

Much like in Tower Records the movie consists of a series of different teenagers who are all contemporary trendy stereotypes who like (or pretend to like) music. All of them have problems that pertain to their particular stereotype. Most of these problems involve their messed up love lives. Though over controlling parents is not a concern for any of these teens who act more like college students.

The stereotypes the movie appeals to would be kids who are any or all of the above:
Indie (in a band), Indie (not in a band but loving obscure bands), Straight-edge, Gay, Sluts, Drunks, Jewish, Poor (in a cool way), Rich (in a down-low way), Virgins who dont want to be virgins anymore, Girls who cheat on guys, People who are in a Friends-with-Benefits relationship.

The story explores one afternoon through to the following morning as the kids scamper (via a complicated array of old, worn down but cool 'only teens would buy this crap' vehicles) all over Manhattan, New York City, Brooklyn and the surrounding area. The hook or story driving plot device is a band called Wheres Fluffy? that we never actually see perform, but who is apparently hugely popular and yet extremely mysterious because you can only find their shows by getting news from bathroom stalls, word of mouth, and cryptic radio disc-jockeys. And even so, half of the clues lead to this other really bad white rap band doing a bait and switch on the fans, forcing them to leave just as quickly as theyve congregated into this instant-plastic-beer-cup-parties.
In a predictable turn of events, Nick, who is having a hard time getting over Trish, his recent ex, ends up meeting Norah who is Trishs friend and who has always enjoyed his mix CDs, at one his bands gigs. (His band is comprised of 2 gay guys and himself, none of whom is a drummer. Apparently this information is really important in the film. For absolutely no reason.)

They pretend to be dating because Trish teases Norah about being single. Trish then proceeds to get very jealous and does her very best to slut her little claws back around Nick (whom is now desirable because someone other than Trish wants him)

Nick and Norah fight and agree all through out the film while Norahs drunk friend goes about being drunk, disorderly, sloppy and gross. The wad of gum becomes a primary character and has a rather disgusting adventure throughout the film.

-SPOILER- -SPOILER- )

Its cute, its going to be dated in about 10 years when another movie becomes the Breakfast Club/Tower Records/Nick & Norahs of that generation, and aside from the gross scenes with the drunk girl can be rather enjoyable if you dont expect too much from it. Juno was far more humorous and tongue in cheek, as well as more original. Though this movie has that kind of feel in its production.

I was also disappointed that the opening credits showed a whole bunch of cool band names and yet none of the bands shown actually had any music played in the movie.

All in all, its not bad but you could find something better to do with your time. I dont think having skipped this movie would have in any way affected my life.

 
 
Im Feeling Sooooooooo: contemplative
 
 
Katie of the Massively Large Testicles
19 December 2008 @ 05:52 pm
As of today, heretofore December 19th shall be known as All Cake's Day.

In celebration of this holiday please be sure to enjoy a little of each cake you encounter through out the day.
So shall it be written, so shall it be done.
 
 
I am: Cake
Im Feeling Sooooooooo: amused
 
 
Katie of the Massively Large Testicles
27 November 2008 @ 10:12 am
I've got a lot going on right now.

So, until the new year, I'm going to take a blogging break just to deal with everything and the holidays.

I wish everyone a great Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Years. See you all in 09!
 
 
Im Feeling Sooooooooo: busy
 
 
Katie of the Massively Large Testicles
26 November 2008 @ 08:21 pm
Home  

It's done. It's 30 degrees and I'm getting over a cold but I'm home.

By this point I've showered and eaten, I'm just letting everyone know.

Happy holidays ;)
It's good to be home.

 
 
Im Feeling Sooooooooo: Relieved
Digging these Hits: "imagine me & you"
 
 
Katie of the Massively Large Testicles
26 November 2008 @ 01:38 am
A moment alone often ends up in me just.. rehashing new ideas. Its hard to explain exactly how 'new' can be 're'hashed..
but thats what its like.

I just think.. and particularly at night.. I just think think think think.

Ive made posts about the night time before.

I met Rau and HB today.
I was my talkative self but I think I was a little schizo.

But thank you Rau for letting me just talk.

I have so many new.. ideas/thoughts/realizations.

I just..
so many things.

I feel so huge and yet so small all at the same time

None of this matters and its yet so huge at the same time.

I wish I could just explain everything.

I love thinking and 'true' talking more than anything
eating
sleeping
warmth

everything.

If only.. if only.
 
 
I am: Days Inn
Im Feeling Sooooooooo: contemplative
 
 
Katie of the Massively Large Testicles
24 November 2008 @ 04:27 am

So,
Yesterday was my 'older' (though younger than me) brother's birthday.
His 26th.

We (El and I) were promised CEC's (Chuck E Cheeses) by our prof in SoCal but it was meant as a joke. It totally got us in the mood though. So we decided to take sergio there for his BDay.

We meant it as a surprise. We thought he'd get a kick out of it since we we often when we were younger.

We are strangers to the area so we used GPS. Our first CEC was a BUST!! It was NoMore!! It was an Ex-CEC! So we headed for a second destination. Along he way we passed a second CEC by chance (I didn't notice it) but it was on Serg's side of the car.

Upon seeing it he said whistfully "Man, we should go there!" to which Elena said "Where?" and he said "CEC!" and I was like. "what, there's one here?" me and El looked at each other and started laughing. Once we told sergio why, he and roger joined in.

It took some doing to get to it, the expressways in Texas are INSANE. Anyway, we got there and played like every freaking game!! Hella fun! Roger and El found a rigged ticket game and spent their coins like woah!! I mostly played fun non ticket games. But we closed the place down and I still had tons of coins, so I went crazy on the ticket machines. We ended up with 983 tickets or something but ALL the prices sucked. So sergio gave the tickets to a little black deaf kid. ;) he said he felt like Jesus (for giving on his Bday) and then we all laughed as he waited for lightning to strike.

We all kept a token as remembrance. It was a good evening over all.

We went back to his (Sergio's) place and met his roomie and the roomies GF. Both of whom were rad. The gay jokes and razzing abounded. James (the roomie) made a reference to his and Roger's homosexual relationship by saying it's Love because he tosses 'rogers salad' all the time. To which my sister replied naively "But roger doesn't eat salads...?" we all laughed.

... I swear.

Anyway.
We decided as a gift, since we all felt so close, we should all get matching tattoos. El and I stayed up designing some.
We all went to sleep and what not.

We got together for lunch today and called a friend of Sergios whose brother is a tatt artist who could hook us up.

We went back to the apartment and met some more of his friends. All way awesome in my opinion (if a bit "off color" but that's just how I like them!!) most of them fairly attractive in that "college guy" way.

We played rock band 2 for hours!! Omg SO FUN!! We were starting to get wiped but the GF made food YUM!!! We wanted to do monopoly but we all had to decide on a tatt, which took a bit and I spent like an hour cleaning it up in Photoshop while people hung out.

Here is what we decided on.

Sorry it's fuzzy, I took A pic with my iphone from the laptop. Best I could do. It's the letters of our last name. See if you can spot them!!

We all wanted them in diff places which is cool. It's one of the three I designed. Everyone liked it. It has a sort of medieval/Asian/atari feel to it but it's cool. It was my least fave design but I like it more and more.

We got our shut together. Took the bike out of the truck into the apartment (because with four people we could barely drive!!) and headed to the tattooist guy's house. Josh was AWESOME! Super tall, cool and laid back, another hottie xD.

He played metal and drum and base (yoink, I took some music off his pc. Woot!!) and had some killer ink of his own! The place was really chill. He made some prints in various sizes and we all got 'fitted' for sizing. Roger got the biggest one, on his upperarm/shoulder. Sergio got the second biggest on the back of his bicept. Elena the third biggest on her back/shoulder blade and I got the smallest, over my old tatt. Once fitted the order was decided.

Roger went first. He didn't make a peep and his tatt was huge and PERFECT! Sergio was supposed to go second but he was sleepy and he lives in the area so they're gonna do his later. He mostly just napped while We were there.

El and Alex (josh's brother) went to get food and had this CRAZY adventure at the what-a-burger drive thru. He's like a stand up comedian. It was awesome. We ate and El went next.

She cried and made a lot of noise. We tended to her sweetly and got her tissues and stuff but she was having a really hard time. We she finished she threw up from the adrenaline overload. But she survived :) I'm really proud of her. Josh was really amazing and talked to her sweetly the whole time. I really respect his patience and kindness.

I went next. It was a bunch of laughs. The needle kept spitting and staining my arm. And sometimes he wobbled and made a few goofups but we took it one step at a time and fixed every one. He was happy for the practice. We were grateful for his time because he squeezed us in like at the last minute.

So he and I were artist perfectonists like obsessing about every detail. And we kept bantering back and forth about the sensations and how stupid my skin was and where needed to be touched up. He was very patient and went over every inch as many times as he needed to, no matter how many 'mistakes' I found. Very very cool.

Here's what my arm looks like now.

You can just barely see the tips of the wings in the picture. I think it's going to heal up good. He did do 3 tatts today so if there are any gaps I can get them fixed later. No worries! ;) still this was such a random and yet über cool like group idea. I'm so psyched. The tatts remind me of the 'Heroes' mark a lot xD!

3 down 1 to go. It's 4:22 now and we have a lot to do tomorrow before getting back on the road. Damn with the iPhone that took a fucking hour to post!! I promise a group photo with all the tatts in a few days!! Later gators.

Anyway, soon to be continued!!

Night!!

 
 
Im Feeling Sooooooooo: Tired and Tattoed in Texas
Digging these Hits: Metal!!
 
 
Katie of the Massively Large Testicles
21 November 2008 @ 06:23 pm

So... Were doin our thing driving down I-10 E and we pass a border patrol truck. Were legal and so of course think little of it. Well... Then there are some blue lights "ok fuck a duck!!!" we pull over kinda freakin cuz we didn't think you could get pulled over for speeding by the BP( which we weren't doing!!!) but it turned out to be two really nice guys ( everyone is nice down here, even the coppers!!) apparantly the chain that keeps the trailer attached was dragging a bit and sparking on the asphalt ! Fun! So with our handy dandy duck tape we secured them a bit better. Meanwhile , they ask from where we came and where were going and they said we'd have a lot of fun in Austin. I think it's gonna be great ^_^

To be continued..

 
 
Im Feeling Sooooooooo: Relieved
 
 
Katie of the Massively Large Testicles
21 November 2008 @ 04:30 pm

Texas! High five!!

 
 
I am: iPhone
 
 
Katie of the Massively Large Testicles
21 November 2008 @ 03:42 pm

Well, the gas man came. Filled us up and we sped off to deming.

Why? More gas, sonic burgers and WalMart.

At sonic I picked up a 'Blue Coconut' slushee thing. I was trepidatious...

It's certainly blue... And slushee (it's practically liquid) but I'm not so sure about the coconut. It tastes like non-descript wet cold sweet thing o.o

I was expecting hating it ...
Elena just farted. Deja vu Arizona!!!
...But finding it almost flavorless (it definitely tastes BLUE at least) I'm not sure how it makes me feel.

We went to Kmart no wait ... Wal-Mart (they were next to each other) to get reserve gas cans. So we don't have to do THAT shit again. We met some rednecks who were funny and made fun of us for taking two gas cans (don't ask).

But on the way in we noticed some Mormons. El freaked out and was like "I hope they don't come over to convert us...

So they did. It was kinda funny. We were like 'we've talked to Mormons before'
And one of them was 'well we talk to people to Convert and Baptize them'
I was taken aback by that. Blunt wow. -laughs- anyway. They gave us propaganda and we went inside.

On the way out of the parking lot we saw a homeless guy with a sign that read
"broke, hungry" and under it had an up arrow and beneath that it said UGLY

I started laughing so hard I felt so bad we don't have any cash right now. But we thumbs upped him and he did it back and laughed with us. It's not food but at least he smiled. That always makes things less bleak.

10 hours to go til Austin. Wish us luck!!

 
 
I am: iPhone
Im Feeling Sooooooooo: Amused
Digging these Hits: Mother by Danzig
 
 
Katie of the Massively Large Testicles
21 November 2008 @ 11:49 am

And then, the AAA agent said...

It will take TWO HOURS TO GET GAS!
(yes I am holding a flashlight under my chin)

-children scream-

 
 
I am: iPhone
Im Feeling Sooooooooo: Waiting
 
 
Katie of the Massively Large Testicles
21 November 2008 @ 11:36 am

So, we left Lordsburg where we crashed for the night with 3 pips out of 10 on our gas gauge.

We drove 15-20 minutes at a slight upward slant (which most of arizona and new mexico has been) and bars dropped down suddenly, screaming "add fuel add fuel".

So we pulled over on I 10 E at the 39 mile marker and called AAA. Now it's just a waiting game Til they bring us gas and we can get back on the road!

What an adventure!!

 
 
I am: iPhone
 
 
Katie of the Massively Large Testicles
21 November 2008 @ 12:59 am


Defacing Rocks Unlawful

HA
This is one of the interesting road signs we've run into on our expedition.
We are at gas place called The Thing?(the ? Is actually in it's name!)
60 miles from NM. I've been taking a nap. My mouth is dry. My thoughts are short. My feet are cold. The stars are so pretty. Katie can't see them a)because she is driving & b)her beloved GPS is causing light pollution. I can see Orions belt from my window. I like the name Orion........maybe I'll give my one of my future kids that as a middle name or sumthin. I'm so happy were gonna see our brothers. Sergio is turning 25 this Saturday and were gonna celebrate by going to Chuck E. Cheese's >.< HAHahahahahahah (Serg doesn't know it yet ) a tumbleweed just like rolled over the prius ....
To Be Continued...!


Ps. I HATE typin on her iphone!! In the time it's taken me to type this 20 miles have passed... Fuck I'll never graduate from secretarial school at this rate!!! What a world what a world.....

 
 
Im Feeling Sooooooooo: Sleepy n' Semi-Delirious
 
 
Katie of the Massively Large Testicles
20 November 2008 @ 10:22 pm

Driving through Arizona can be experienced many ways.

The sights, the sounds, the SMELLS!

For a good stretch after the desert, driving with the windows down ended up with is being enveloped in the over powering stench of rotten eggs.

15 miles into Casa Grande has a pungent complex aroma:
Manure, urine, bird seed and feet.

It's been... Interesting.

The Old Spagetti Factory in Phoenix, AZ did not disappoint. It wasn't marvellous but the food was prepared well, the service was perfect and the décor fun 20's memorabilia.

All in all a very good time fit for a family with finicky eaters!

Now let's see if we can make Texas before bed.

 
 
I am: iPhone
Im Feeling Sooooooooo: Amused
 
 
Katie of the Massively Large Testicles
20 November 2008 @ 07:59 pm

State prison SURPRISE Arizona
From prisoners, by prisoners, for prisoners!
You shiv 'em, we serve 'em!
The not so mystery meat!

 
 
I am: iPhone
 
 
Katie of the Massively Large Testicles
19 November 2008 @ 09:51 pm

I just have one thing to say to you:

Put your ass in the air
Put your ass up in the air.

 
 
I am: iPhone
 
 
Katie of the Massively Large Testicles
19 November 2008 @ 02:31 pm

El drove first for several hours.

We've come up with a 'group name'.
We are team "not dead in a ditch".
In this time, we've also written a theme song, simply titled 'Team Not Dead in a Ditch's theme song'.

It's catchy, akin to the Monkey Island Pirate song, with a playful pirate aesthetic.

We won't post it here because it's much better live. Ask us if you want to hear it. A flash/YouTube video is in the works.

Wer'e in kettleman city?? (sp)
About 3.5hrs from LA and Long Beach.

CHA for tea is going to be our pitstop there. 7th street long beach!

Anyway most of our meetup plans are vague or not happening so if you wanna come by an have sweet toast and bubble team, drop us a line!

We keep meeting awesome people along the way. The repair guy here at Jack in the Box (who is cute) chatted us up :)

Talk to you guys in a few hours from Long Beach!

 
 
I am: iPhone
 
 
Katie of the Massively Large Testicles
19 November 2008 @ 01:21 am

It's 1am. We're in a crummy little hotel in Hayward. It took us an hour to park in the little tiny parking lot. Thanks Leisha, I told you I didn't want to come here for this very space issue 9.9

But with my sister behind the wheel we managed it. (management lied and complained about the parking job before we moved the car to a second setup of their choice. Which they also complained about. Awesome parking pictures to be included tomorrow)

We showered and ate dinner with Leisha. It was horrendous. She drones on and on about innane bullshit. I can barely focus on her. My mind starts to wander less than five minutes after she opens her mouth. I just nod and make noises so she knows I know she's talking. She seems satisified with that. It's like 'can you TRY to be interesting for a minute please? And not be so focused on yourself?' I don't WANT to know about every single meal you have ever eaten and how each meal compares to every other meal! In fact isn't it rude to talk about food when you're eating!!?! Waugh!

I was exhausted and was maybe a little mean after dinner (sis called me on it) but Leisha just kinda nodded and kept talking. Whatever. The food on the other hand was really really good! I had scallops and butternut squash ravioli. O M G!

Anyway, we got back to the motel around 9 or so and I fell right into bed. My brain won't stop racing and I'm developing an ear infection an I just can't freaking sleep. I keep worrying about Cha for Tea, tomorrow. And Nicki being mean to Crystal and wondering if I am going to see either of them at all :/

No wireless. I miss them all so much right now. Like I'm disconnected from my limbs but I have phantom pain anyway.

I feel bad that Kat wasn't there yesterday. Like maybe she wanted to avoid me :/ but I guess it's only fair, if she does.

Sciotis and Depres probably won't make it which makes me kind of sad. Oh well.

I've taken aspirin maybe that and having posted will help. So far we've compromised and have not argued at all :) we can do this! WE CAN DO THIS!

Now to try to sleep again. Wish me luck!

 
 
I am: iPhone
 
 
Katie of the Massively Large Testicles
18 November 2008 @ 01:54 pm

So we landed, got picke up by our ride and got to the house quickly. There was a brief moment of panic but alls well that ends well!

We checked out a local repair shop. Maintenance check, $71 (we were expecting 6 times that!) and the car is ok to drive 'as is' Til we hit the east coast (with periodic duct tape checks) hooray! Relief!

This place was also local (as in across the street and not 6-10 miles away) Bonus!!

My baby is back!! I missed you Tardis!! Who's a good boy?? You are!!

The closest Uhaul place was bust: the hitch we needed was unavailable and they had no install team.

We went 8 miles away and were told "we got the part but our crew is busy!"
A few moments of explaining our 'rush' and Stacey (the manager) totally pulled through for us! Our hitch is being put in right now, and we were worried about capacity but once again Stacey one upped us and we are getting a bigger trailer at a killer deal!
So in a couple hours we will be on our way back to start loading that puppy!

It seems we've had a few hiccups that have turned into opportune miracles.

This trip is certainly coming along on a good foot!

Will keep you guys posted!

 
 
I am: iPhone
 
 
Katie of the Massively Large Testicles
18 November 2008 @ 06:36 am

Dulles airport
Five guys order line

Check out girl reffered to me as "Sir-Ma'am"
Fastest recovery ever (1 of 3 recoveries thus far)

I congratulated her, but she just looked at me blankly.

I almost wanted to ask her why she said sir first, and what 'gave me away' (to change the defect, possibly. But in which direction? I'm not sure even I know) but I didn't. I'm pretty sure I'd just be rewarded with another blank stare.

Anyway color me amused.

On another note, laying still with my blindfold on last night resulted in me laying still with my blindfold on. No sleep. Can't say I didn't try my hardest. I'm not even sure if the lack of a crazy dream is reward enough. I kinda like my crazy dreams.

Oh well, I've got an iced mocha frapp, (two shots!! I learnt my lesson!) let's see what happens. Doing my best to just take things as they come.

Expect more posts as the trip progresses. I'm gonna do my best to keep Elena calm, so this is a fun and easy trip ^^. She has even expressed interest in posting herself :)

Ciao bambinos!

 
 
I am: iPhone
 
 
Katie of the Massively Large Testicles
16 November 2008 @ 02:49 pm
VoicePost Help
435K 2:13
“Ok here's another dream. I dreamed that I was in the city like Boston and who is involved I was in the dorm and I gotta drive in a place like Car Max. It wasn't actually Car Max but it was a place that dealt with used cars and insurance. It was very big. I know it's like I forget exactly what they did and I met a girl at the Dunkin Donuts and there was a guy who threatened to kill people kinda like to the chefs the soup guys and soup nothing from Sign Field about donuts and there was a plant they was looking like they closing so all they had was like barely donuts and so I ___ everything else I'll take something and he said to carve out my donut like a knife like in a torture way those dreams. So I did ___ question that girl who worked at and then I got to the other Car Max and they had to kinds of jobs they had like customer service and visitor service and customer is like in the back and you just dealt with computers. Visitor service was like you had to work nice and you had to be in the front and talk about the nice and by the way like they never explained to us what the job was they just said like work and somebody brought they put like that tiny little thing there was a lot of geeks there so they had a lot of like animated stuff. Oh my God that was just so fucking strange I don't know why I have these dreams I was like don't. There was more of them but I can't remember it any more. Ok for now. Bye.”

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Katie of the Massively Large Testicles
15 November 2008 @ 03:14 pm
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Katie of the Massively Large Testicles
14 November 2008 @ 11:40 pm
Not panama is one of the most awesome fucking things.. ever.
It is beyond compare.

Seriously.

[info]wolf_were  and [info]thebeardedone 

You guys rock my world. HARD CORE.
Thank you so much :)
 
 
Im Feeling Sooooooooo: amused
 
 
Katie of the Massively Large Testicles
12 November 2008 @ 10:17 am

I dreamt I was coming back from Cali but there was no hitch and Rachel was there. I stopped in a cigarette store run by an Amish guy and the store had super cheap name brand cigarettes.
I ask Rachel if she will take my cigs and buy me something different in trade.
Rachel doesn't smoke, but a few stores prior Rachel had been Joni from New York. And Joni does smoke. Rachel takes the Pall Malls I had and btw I had somehow managed to park the prius INSIDE the store. Anyway, she takes the PMs and I don't think twice about it but she manages to drag the whole thing out so that she doesn't buy anything by closing time (which is a ridiculous 6pm) and had kept my old cigarettes. 6 struck and they bustle me outside, leaving the prius locked inside.
The next hour or so was spent in that half delirious half awake state, trying to come up with ways to get my car out. (which has been running the whole time)
Some ways involved the police. Some involved me trying to shoulder open the door. In one hallucination I got inside but the doors opened inwards so I just keep considering how bad it would be if I just drove through the doors in my car.

The dream prior to that was about a video game I was playing with Roger and Elena and Ade, somehow. While at a convention doing art. I was waiting for a file packet that would make something happen in game that was somewhat crucial. And people kept showing me their fan art.

What a crazy night.

 
 
 
 
Katie of the Massively Large Testicles
09 November 2008 @ 01:57 am
Contingency planning is important.

It's totally necessary.

I spent the evening with some people I haven't seen in a while.
I planned to just be at home doing nothing. This worked out much better.

I had fun, had some heart to hearts, and just relaxed. 

Contingencies happened.
I'm pretty happy about them.

In fact.. I feel hugely relieved.

This isn't going to suck so hard.. but everything is going to be different.
Now.. wish me luck.
*crosses fingers*
 
 
Im Feeling Sooooooooo: hopeful
 
 
Katie of the Massively Large Testicles
08 November 2008 @ 03:40 pm
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“I just woke up. I had a strange fucking”

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Katie of the Massively Large Testicles
08 November 2008 @ 12:15 am
Money money money money MONEY money money Money

God.. fucking.. damnit.

Yeah.. Ok. Comcast. FUCK.

Bartending.. yeah probably not happening maybe. FUCKING MONEY

FUCK.

If only ANYONE was here.

4k in credit card debt. Less than 2k in the bank.
Car payment due in like.. a week.
*head-desk*

Also. Note to David and anyone else who cares
Pandora - the Music Genome Project

It seems Video Roleplay should work.. but not if I do Comcast.. that's probably going to ruin everything.

That is all.

 
 
Im Feeling Sooooooooo: anxious
 
 
Katie of the Massively Large Testicles
07 November 2008 @ 01:49 pm
I think I'm getting sick.
At least I got to BBV and picked up 12 movies I can watch this weekend, because everyone has plans and I'm going to be alone for at least most of it.

Lisa came over last night and we talked and watched a movie. It was pretty fun.

Mah Jong didn't happen, obviously.. but Steffanie is coming over Sunday Night so we can play (fam + her + I)

I leave Tuesday morning (as in before the sun comes up) to get to Cali by mid afternoon.

Kettle corn.. why  have you forsaken me?

annndd that's all folks!
 
 
Im Feeling Sooooooooo: sick
 
 
Katie of the Massively Large Testicles
06 November 2008 @ 02:22 am
I spent a good 3 hours scanning in old family pictures onto the laptop. Pictures I refuse to take with me, because doing so makes me feel like a thief.. but which I want.

So I have them now.. digitally..

I see so many smiling faces.



What happened?

What the fuck happened?
 
 
I am: in tears
Im Feeling Sooooooooo: sad
 
 
Katie of the Massively Large Testicles
05 November 2008 @ 09:36 am
She just walked over here and said
"In exchange for all the help I just gave you.. can you cook the beef and chicken so it doesn't go bad?"

I Just wanted to look at her and say "Help? WHAT FUCKING HELP?"

but she followed it up by saying
" I Support you.. whatever decision you make I support you. And I will help you if I Can hide it from dad"


WHAT THE FUCK IS SHE THINKING?! IS SHE HIGH ON FUCKING CRACK?!!?!?
 
 
 
Im Feeling Sooooooooo: aggravated
 
 
Katie of the Massively Large Testicles
05 November 2008 @ 09:18 am
.. My mother and sister have been talking.
They got me out of bed early to talk to me.

To talk to me about the myriad of ways they have been coming up with to get me out to california and bring my stuff back here.

.. They have been up all morning, talking about how to 'rescue me'...

They know I'm going to need 30K a year.. They know I don't have a degree.. They don't think its fucking possible...

So BEHIND MY BACK.. they have been talking about my life.. planning it (This is SO Suzie, AJ and Lying Ho when I was homeless, it's not even fucking funny.. HELLO WOUNDS I HADN'T THOUGHT ABOUT IN YEARS! WELCOME BACK!)

I'm being goaded with rewards (You can have the big room, and you can put all your stuff in there because ELENA can have her computer in the family room but You can't and We can lock the room with all your stuff in there ['it will be like an apartment!' she said yesterday] so when Roger comes home, he doesn't have to annoy you by making you password your computer!)

I'm being frightened and intimidated by mathematics (Well you are going to have to get a job right away that will pay you 15 dollars an hour. You can BARELY cover all your expenses without frivolity, if you do, but this doesn't include paying off your credit card debt)

I'm being tortured by disbelief (Because you can't make it Kate.. You are going to fail out there.. and the only two people in the world who really really really care about you are sitting in this room.. and no one else is going to help you... Oh.. Dan is going to help you? Did he put that in writing? I wouldn't believe him if I was you, if it isn't in writing! And if you move to california we can't help pay for anything.. but if you stay here.. we can steal money from Dad to help you!)

and KNOWING I'm going to need all this fucking money.. whats her fucking plan? SHE IS FORCING ME NOT TO WORK TODAY AND TOMORROW!! SHE IS not ASKING me to.. she is TELLING me not to go to work.. and I don't have a car.. and I can't borrow theirs.. so I CAN'T get to work.. which means that is two day's pay I'm NOT earning to.. you know.. pad my bank until I get settled out in Cali..

They are fucking PLANNING MY FUCKING LIFE?!!?!? WAUGH!

And they are trying to RUSH me into leaving again.. so they can like.. buy my ticket right nownownownownownownownownow so they can send Elena out with me so I can get a hitch so I can put my stuff in the Uhaul so Elena can drive back with me and my stuff so they can fix the prius here..

*SCREAMS*


If I was prone to panic attacks.. FUCK...
Im going to die.. I'm going to die.. I'm going to die.
*Cowers*

.. California to them.. is a Chimera Dream.. I don't even know what the fuck that means..
I told them I don't want their doubt.. but this.. this just means they don't believe in me.. they don't believe I can make it..
I'm so full of fear right now...

I can't take it.. someone help me.. I can't take it..
 
 
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Katie of the Massively Large Testicles
04 November 2008 @ 09:23 pm
... No help. No help at all.
No help for the car.
No help for the school.
I'm doing this all alone (mostly).

This is terrifying.
My wallet is going to be so fucking tight from here on out.
I'll be out of here sometime next week.

Taking what he offered did nothing at all. It changed nothing at all. I fell for a fascade. I always do.
A little time.. and this fascade is going bye bye if it doesn't 'stop'. I don't need this extra burden.

I'm only a guest.. but a very expensive guest.

Oh gods..
I'm going to die.
The stress compounds. Even a hitachi won't help with this insane level of stress packed behind my neck right now.

She and I keep fighting. I'm fucking furious and it's mostly outside of my control which is NOT FUCKING HELPING RIGHT NOW!
Can't she understand the tremendous stress I'm under? And the fact that she never learns and it's infuriating under the best of conditions.

I'm so sick of hearing about everyone else's problems right now.
I don't want her to die. But I can't fucking cope with it.
I think she's being an idiot, but my advice rings on deaf ears and I just can't bother to give a shit.
I'm sick of everyone I know attempting or accomplishing Suicide. Why does everyone have to keep fucking dying (Before their fucking time!)

To find out you are, in the end, pretty expendable.. is very very harsh indeed.

All I want to do is to break into fucking tears and sleep constantly.. My eyes are extra sensitive and no matter how much sleep I get all I want to do is sleep.

. . . His jaw set in such a way.. that at this very moment all I want to do is write poetry.
I'm so sick of the scene.

I hate it.. can't he see how fucking STUPID it is? How fucking JUVENILE!?!

If I wasn't alone.. life would be easier.. I could SHARE my burden.. I could share my space.. I'm alone. FUCKING ALONE. And no one can help me past a certain fucking point.

Rachel was a huge relief. Mer and I keep having to postpone. SHE can fucking 'live without me' and won't even bother saying goodbye. Fuck her I'm keeping it. I don't even care if her mother hates me any more.

I miss my car. I miss my fucking car. God damnit I miss my fucking car. I hate being a dependant again. I hate being STUCK here.. stuck like an idiot... Waking up when they tell me to, coming home when they tell me to.. like a fucking infant...

UGh... I don't want to make decisions anymore. I just want to live. Can someone else please tell me what to fucking do.. I can follow orders so well.. I just don't know what the fuck I'm doing.. Im so scared all the time... please..
gods..

please.....
 
 
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Katie of the Massively Large Testicles
02 November 2008 @ 02:48 pm
Been getting plenty of sleep.
Bought season 1 of Pushing Daisies
My sister totally loves it.
And I do as well.

I fucking love this show. Thank you Ben.

Got my mother a Mah Jong set (hopefully not a miniature one)

And I got my 25 dollar gift card from my Amazon Card.. which I used to buy a Hitachi Magic Wand. Happily the wand was also on SALE.. and minus 25 dollars I payed something like 10-15 dollars for the wand.  Talk about a fucking deal. See why I love Amazon?

... Yeah
Maybe the rest is better left unsaid.
 
 
Im Feeling Sooooooooo: relaxed
 
 
Katie of the Massively Large Testicles
30 October 2008 @ 07:07 pm

A soap opera starring Melanie McSoutherland where young women suffer under the grips of the very controlling seat belts they love!

Melanie: No, no, no! Let me go!
Seatbelt: -is a seatbelt, restrains-
Melanie: Im pregnant! And it's not your baby!
Seatbelt: -is a seatbelt-

Brought to you by S and her hardships with my sister's car's belt!

Can you tell I'm Exhausted?

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Katie of the Massively Large Testicles
29 October 2008 @ 10:58 am

Just got back to my old bed.
Most fucking turbulent flight ever!!
Been up for almost 24 hours. But I get to sleep now.
Glad I didn't actually throw up.
Everything is different already and it's only been 1 week.
Smoothie withdrawals will be SATED.
Can't wait to see people again.

But right now OMG sleep!

See yawll in 12 :P
Moah!

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Katie of the Massively Large Testicles
27 October 2008 @ 08:10 am
Well I got -home- about .. I don't even know.. an hour ago? or so?
I'm fucking dead tired. But I was waiting up for [info]gushi  and [info]afterannabel  to get here.

They're here and we have make shift beds on empty floors..
Unloading that truck is going to be a bitch tomorrow.

I had a big talk with myself on the way down, because I sped ahead of the truck for the last couple hours.
I was too tired to drive behind them at the end.

I was all psyched to do stuff once I got here (specific stuff) but stuff happened and I got distracted.

I still want to do it but now I'm not sure how to go about it.
I think the Gushmeister and I need to have a sit down to talk.
When we are both rested and calm and this fucking move is ACTUALLY -over-.

Gods only knows.. gods only knows.
Tria and Gypsy seem nice.
Lil-Lord is already my favorite.
HUGE post with lots of pics.. sometime in the future.

Night people..
I plan to sleep for days.
 
 
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Im Feeling Sooooooooo: exhausted
 
 
Katie of the Massively Large Testicles
26 October 2008 @ 10:53 pm

A few hours from Reno.
5 hours from "home".

Everyone should have a friend who knows the symptoms of 'Cabin Fever'.

... Homicidal urges... Huh, who knew?

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Katie of the Massively Large Testicles
26 October 2008 @ 11:18 am

When you do something too much the mind becomes fixated and just closing your eyes makes you see whatever it is, over and over. This happens frequently with fast paced puzzle games like Tetris for example.

It's like your brain is problem solving but it's a very skewed way of doing it.

I can't sleep. Everytime I close my eyes I see driving. But I'm not even fixated on good driving. I keep seeing myself driving badly, causing accidents, driving off the road, swerving. Careening into the penske truck.

My stomach is sick, I'm jittery with adrenaline and I'm breathing hard out of panic. I can't close my eyes, it all keeps coming back...

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26 October 2008 @ 04:21 am

Now STFU I'm trying to sleep!
-flumps onto bed-
Zonk...

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26 October 2008 @ 04:19 am

55m/hr winds + this!!
Awesome >.<

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Katie of the Massively Large Testicles
25 October 2008 @ 07:17 pm

Finally out of Nebraska. Holy fuck that took forever!!

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25 October 2008 @ 04:56 am
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Katie of the Massively Large Testicles
25 October 2008 @ 03:26 am
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“Ok, so. We made it through Nebraska, we're looking for a place to eat. So far so good. The duct tape over my car needs to be fixed because we were going so fast at wind kinda ripped some of the tape off and also about, I don't know, 2 hours ago my service engine maintenance Required light went on and I don't know why. But if we stop we'll you know kill the awesome time we've been making. It's fucking annoying. So yeah we'll see what happens. Anyways, just let you know that I'm still alive and it's 3:00 in the morning or 2:00 2:00 where I am, 3:00 where you guys are, ok. Later peeps.”

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Katie of the Massively Large Testicles
25 October 2008 @ 12:27 am
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“Well I asked him to bring the camera when we got off in... where the fuck are we... in Newton Jasper Iowa. Promise is uh.. I don't know if they brought it and if they did I forgot to ask them.. but we just stopped at a love. Looks like a kind of gas station and truck stop thing. Cheapest gas I've seen so far so far $2.21 unleaded regular. I'm just taking pictures so it will be a second to taken a picture of but anyway I forgot cuz I'm lame. Better luck for next time for sure. That's all,Just wanted to fucking share. Later!”

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Katie of the Massively Large Testicles
24 October 2008 @ 08:12 pm
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“I just went through a Starbucks drive thru and I got a huge mocha frap with 3 shots of espresso and they just made my fucking day. I've never seen them before I'm exited. I'm in Peru Illinois, how crazy is that? That's all. Bye.”

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24 October 2008 @ 07:38 pm
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“This is the funniest shit ever.
Ok we're leaving Illinois. Or we're on our way out of Illinois and we are on I-80 West. And it was raining like cats and dogs last night. Well, the weather was awful and we were all really tired. And now we're leaving again and its not cats and dogs, now its raining like horses and cows.

It's fucking awful. We're on the right lane, going slow.. we're going like 60.. and this fucking giant truck (I had my window cracked like an inch so I can smoke, because we didn't have the time to stop in someplace to get coffee, and there haven't been any exists that had coffee) I'm smoking to stay awake and umm.. I have my window open a 1/4-1/2 an inch. And the truck drives by and SPRAYS ME through the crack, into the car.
(chuckle) This.. this is living, my friend. This is fucking living.
Ok, that's all.
-Laughs-
Crazy. Bye!”

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Katie of the Massively Large Testicles
24 October 2008 @ 05:10 pm
Well.... I feel properly Castigated now.

I'm in Illinois. I'm alive. My car is a little worse for the wear (Note the Moon Surface Pothole reference in the above link)

Slapping the front-underside of my car on the fucking SURFACE OF THE MOON makes BigNuts FREAK OUT and Prius unhappy!

After a sound very loud but much like the noise produced when kids place a playing card in the spokes of their bicycles, I pulled over just past the toll-entrance to the Indiana Turnpike. The plastic was all mangled and one piece of metal was bent upwards. I ripped some pieces off and then duct taped the rest up... it looks a bit ridiculous.

I feel humiliated to have a beautiful amazing car like that.. and I treat it so poorly out of idiocy and lumbering.

I'm embarrassed to call myself a human being.

Several times last night I broke into -3 second tears- because I felt like I was some sort of idiot who had no idea what I was doing. (Which.. I do not know. the prior link.. helped with that.. but I still feel like a jackass)

I am apparently the collect of spinning keychains.
I have one for almost every state I've been in (save for MD, NY, WVA and VA) but I have them for every other state we've driven through. ... I'm a dork.

Sunglasses are lame and I hate the eye fatigue squinting in the sun gives me. And thick glasses making me focus (too much) give me.
FUCK YOU SUN. FUCK YOU.

Fear fear fear fear fear fear fear fear fear fear.

Yeah.. that adequately describes what's going on in my life right now. Panic Panic Panic Panic. And apparently every ounce of that feeling of accomplishment I've been garnering.. entirely unmerited.

On better news I met Keith last night.. He's really short. So short that on first meeting I said out loud, awkwardly "Wow.. you're short"
But it was nice to meet him : ) He's more attractive in RL than online. His eyes are REALLY really blue.

Uhhh
that's it. Gonna go get the 2 way radios set up.
Call me if you like. Friends can see the number a few posts prior..
Oh and Melissa.. I DID post my route.. on my journal.. here. I AM RATHER OBVIOUSLY NOT GOING THROUGH FUCKING LOUISIANA. Please.. for the love of God.. Focus. :D ok?
 
 
Im Feeling Sooooooooo: aggravated
 
 
Katie of the Massively Large Testicles
23 October 2008 @ 04:59 am
Updated list as trip continues
Boy I'm lame :D

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Im Feeling Sooooooooo: productive
 
 
Katie of the Massively Large Testicles
23 October 2008 @ 01:04 am
Unplanned trips across America are LAH MEH
I have no idea where I'm going.
My other half is still in MD somewhere..
I'm in Pittsburgh.

I'm supposed to find a motel convenient for them and they'll track me down or SOMETHING o.o

Can I be more stressed?
No.. I submit that I cannot!

Also..
Further tales from the Women's Bathrooms!
I was in a pit stop rest area bathroom in PA tonight, around oh.. 11.. and I get into a stall.. one of 40 empty ones..
and another woman sits down in the stall right next to mine (Very a la Men's bathroom phobia time)
She is of foreign descent and starts talking in a foreign language to another female several stalls down (SHE got it.. and they're FRIENDS. I'm a complete stranger but she's peeing next to me!)

and she starts doing 'number 1'
This is the sounds I heard
pssssss (2 second pause) psssssssss (2 second pause) pssssssssss (2 second pause)
(this went on for about.. 2 minutes.. or something)
*her friend talks to her in FL -foreign langage-
Psss (2 second pause) pssssss
*responds in FL*
Psssss (2 second pause) pssssssss (2 second pause)
*friend talks back in FL*
Pssss (2 second pause) etc
*responds in FL*

They both leave..


women are fucking weird and have strange bathroom habits.. omg

>.<
I'm super charged with coffee and nicotine (and rainbows -adds Wesley-) AND exhausted.
This is probably a bad combination. I did cut an hour off my trip by going 90 for most of the leg here (To Pittsburgh)
But now.. what the fuck :D

I just collapsed into his arms, and cried myself better :)
Maybe the rest of the trip won't suck.

Ok.. going to hang now, then find a hotel on the way for them and will report further news on the Road with Big Nuts tomorrow
Night folks
Sleep well
 
 
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Katie of the Massively Large Testicles
21 October 2008 @ 11:13 am
.. now.

My mother is a cunt wad who lied to me to lull me into a false sense of security which resulted in me being an ASS PRAT and making my boss fucking uncomfortable and teasing a friend and my stomach being a fucking knot of guilt and annoyance and stress.
Or I should say MORE of those things. It [my stomach] was those things already.

My hair got shaped last night, and dyed a VERY boring AND NOT NATURAL ashy black-brown. My hair is slightly less ashy and more warm dark brown. But fuck it, whatever. I feel so 'fake goth' right now... I haven't had all black hair.. in ages.


Picture taken in the dark, after the haircut. It's late.. I was RESTED and had that whole.. false sense of security.. going for me just then. I'm not actually that happy. (I had to go pick up the boss's sister from the car-window place where she had to drop off her MONOLITH of an SUV.. and I collapsed into tears on the trip back.. obviously I'm not in a good place right now)

I had this haircut 5 years ago when I got back from being homeless... this haircut while attractive is giving me stress out the ass [MEMORIES!]. And also the bangs are too short.

My boss is freaking out.

My mother is talking to some 'guy' for work so I can't go in there and ream her out.
It's amazing how... capable she is.. of rewriting the memories in her head whenever she is caught red handed about something, she like.. lies to herself and then to everyone else that she is not at all at fault. It's not lying. She THINKS/BELIEVES its the fucking truth. Which is why its so 'easy' for her. I confronted her about the lie and she said, without any shame "But I didn't tell you to call her in at 9:30 in the morning. I just told you to TELL her to be ready IF he called her in!" ... ok mom.. please move the words around and change the pronouns to match what would put you in a good light (and me in a HORRIBLE ONE) so you can't be fucked in the ass for all your manipulative bullshit. SURE MOM. LET'S GO WITH THAT! BECAUSE MY LIFE ISN'T HARD ENOUGH AND I'M NOT FAR ENOUGH ON/OVER THE EDGE FOR YOUR SATISFACTION.

I'm fucking moving tomorrow. If my boss doesn't like that.. well that's fucking tough shit.
He was lulled into a false sense of me being here another month.
I told him I can go to Cali, get on a FUCKING PLANE and get back here for 2 weeks if he needs me. But I already GAVE him 2 weeks. Look what he did with them.

He 'MAY' hire this girl. Or he may not. he doesn't even have ad space up anywhere about this job!
Gods know how long this will take, him finding someone.. And he wants me JUST for two weeks. But if he takes 2 weeks to GET Someone I won't have enough time to TRAIN them and will have to stay fucking LONGER.. for that. So 2 weeks won't be fucking enough.

Ok.. so she has like.. that thing that makes her have scaly scalp flesh all over the place.. and she seems a bit.. unclean.
But she can do this.. and its a WARM BODY HERE to at least answer the fucking phones...

oh.. and I Told him when I got Jessica's job (Over a year ago) that we should stop using Paper PO's and move to Electronic ordering.
He told me no. He went to a conference last weekend and when he interviewed the girl told HER he was gonna switch it to Electronic Ordering.

WAUUUUGGGH!!

Mer came over last night.. emergency meeting. And as soon as she walked in we both cried like babies. I cried on the way to work this morning. I'm fucking crying right now. WHERE THE FUCK IS RACHEL?!

Seeing my boss's face today.. and trying to explain the move is tomorrow, period.. not fun.
Gods.. I just want to crawl into a hole and die.. if living my dreams is so excruciating... why do I bother living at all?
The computer is 99% stripped of everything I put in it...
So much has been done in so little time..
Why can't he bend just a little..
He's telling me this is all about the phones not being answered. The phones haven't been 'answered' since we moved into this office a year ago. Because he wanted to get rid of the porn watching waste of space and have an automated system.
Is it MY fault no one answers their phone? I ALWAYS ANSWER and its NEVER for me! Or its recorded ADs.
Grrrr.

IT"S NOT MY FAULT, BOSS! PLEASE DON'T CRUSH MY DREAMS!
 
 
Im Feeling Sooooooooo: aggravated